Wednesday, June 19, 2013

To Timmy, at Five Years Old

Timmy,

I don't know where to start today, you are just too much!  You are so many things simultaneously, and they shouldn't all fit together.  You are so sweet, so stubborn, so damn smart, so great with Tyler, so energetic, so handsome, so mean to Tyler, so aware of your emotions and full of empathy, so full of reasons not to go to bed.  You are so much.

Timmy at Birth, 2008

You are as sweet as can be.  You shower us with kisses and hugs and you love to be snuggled and still like to be carried.  You know that Tyler gets carrying priority over you though.  While you and Tyler are both still Mamma's boys, when Daddy can't convince Tyler to come snuggle with him, you happily go over and give Daddy your snuggles, hugs, and kisses without prompting.

You are stubborn with a one track mind.  Once you decide there is something you want to be doing, you ask over and over and over.  It is very hard to get you to change your plans!  You have started to try to negotiate with us, which is how Daddy and I frequently settle plans with each other, so this doesn't surprise me too much.  You are a quick learner.

Timmy at his 1st Birthday Party

You are so smart and you are really starting to figure out the way the World works.  You butter us and your grandparents up before asking for a favor, like to play with our tablets.  For your birthday party we arranged to have Teddy Roosevelt surprise you.  Except you weren't surprised.  When you saw him you said, "Hey Teddy, what are you doin' here?" but you weren't shocked.  On the way home Daddy asked you how you knew Teddy was coming.  You answered, "Well, you put his picture on the invitation, so I thought he might come."  Your vocabulary is growing as fast as you are, you are talking the way we talk, and using all of your new words correctly.

You are great with Tyler.  You encourage him to accomplish new things, like climbing up the slide.  You wake him up to come downstairs with you on weekend morning's, and you always let him watch Mickey Mouse, even though you've seen every episode multiple times by now.  When he gets hurt, you will come over and check on him, rub his back and say, "Ohhh, poor you," and Tyler will agree with you, "Uh-huh" while you give him a kiss.  You introduce him to people, "This is my little brother Ty-lur" and you protect him whenever necessary.  You love him with everything you've got.

Timmy on his 2nd Birthday

You never stop moving.  Even when you are laying down watching you tube videos of other people playing video games (your current favorite past time, and when asked why you like it so much, you said that you were learning how to play in case Daddy ever gets you those games) you are wiggling, bouncing your legs up and down, flopping from one position to another.  Your favorite activity outside is still running, though being in the pool will be rivaling that soon I'm sure.

You are so handsome and it's not just a mother's eyes that think so!  When we posted your T-ball picture, both Aunt Jenny and Nicole asked for prints so they could frame them!

Timmy at his 3rd Birthday Party

You can be out right mean to Tyler, which is what the big sibling is supposed to be, sometimes, I'm going to keep telling myself.  One minute you will be playing nicely, and the next you are grabbing whatever he's got away from him.  You tease and torment him and you escalate it until we intervene.  You are definitely toughening him up.  You better get it out of your system while you're still bigger then he is though, and that won't be forever.  Tyler has been known to knock you out of his way and holds his ground pretty well already.  You do go back to being sweet as fast as you started being mean most of the time.

I've seen since you were really little that you were aware of your feelings and of others' more so then most kids your age.  We thought that Sophia was going to come to your birthday party, but she didn't make it.  No one said anything about it at the party but when we got home and I had you to myself for a moment I asked you if you had fun and if we'd done a good job for your party.  With a big smile you said yes, but then you said, "I was really disappointed that Sophia didn't come.  I was really looking forward to seeing her."  It was such a grown up feeling and grown up expression of that feeling that it hurt my heart for you and showed me how grown up you already are.

Timmy at his 4th Birthday Party

You hate bed time.  If you could sleep in our room every night you wouldn't mind it.  But your days of sleeping in our room, now that Tyler wants to sleep with us when you do, are going to be fewer and farther between!  You two are wild animals in your sleep and Mommy and Daddy can't take it!  Some of your pleas to stay up have been getting wilder.  The Friday that your first round of VBS wrapped up you were in bed asking me if you could stay up later.  When I said no, you told me, "God made us for having fun and for being nice.  Especially parents to be nice."  Recently you had told me that you help Susan with the dishes every day.  That night, when you said goodnight to everyone, Grammy happened to be doing dishes.  From your bed you begged and pleaded with me to let you go help Grammy, "but I haven't done dishes all day!" you reasoned.

We are so in love with you.  When you were born you filled every void we didn't even know was empty.  I am in awe watching you make your way through the World.  Suzanne and I recently complained that everyone tells you about the terrible two's but no one tells you how difficult five year olds are!  I think that two and five are my favorite ages though!  They are both big years for change, which I dread and am in awe of simultaneously.  I can not wait to watch you keep growing and changing this year, especially when you enter elementary school!  When I look at you all I can think is, "Wow."  I love you Tim-Tim.

Timmy at his 5th Birthday Party

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